And a new one begins.

i knew the decision which you made was highly probable. The likelihood was so high that in some ways, i was preparing myself for it mentally. That time outside LT6, when i talked to you regarding the letter which you gave me, you had already made this decision then. But i talked you round that time. During this period when you were making your decision, i recalled this incident and i somehow knew you would be giving me the same answer. All this while during the holiday break, i just feel that everything was like the calm before the storm. i could sense the storm coming, but i was still hoping for the best.

That night after supper, when i was driving you back, you didnt talk much. i knew you were deep in thoughts. Everytime you were deep in thoughts, i knew you were thinking about us. And these always happened whenever things are happening all so nicely and rosy like we're in a fairy tale. i still remembered that time at the basement of The Cathay, when you were queuing up to buy food, you looked over to me. Twice, you looked over and gave me a smile, but i just felt that the smiles were weighed down with thoughts.

While driving on the way back to my place, my mind was clouded with thoughts too. The hug you gave me before we parted, it felt different. The storm was drawing nearer and nearer. Over MSN at night, like i told you, there was this constant nagging feeling in my heart and mind. i really wanted to know what you were thinking. i pretty much knew what it was that is weighing you down. But i wanted to hear you speak your mind out. And the first thunder rolled.

Anyway, i dont really want to have this entry laden with the negative portion of the entire process. What i would really like to focus is on the part when we have managed to come down to a closure with our relationship. i am pretty amazed as to how we have managed to sit down and have a proper talk about this entire matter. Many a times, like those in television dramas, things almost always end with a sour note. But for us, like what i said, we started off as two people who can speak openly about almost anything and everything. Even as we end off this untimely relationship, we have managed to sustain this shared area in our lives. And i am very thankful and fortunate for that.

It would be a lie to say that i have let things go so easily. 那个依依不舍的心情一直留在我心中和脑海里. Tears flowed endlessly. i thought i would only cry that night. But i found myself weeping again the following morning. This morning, after washing up, i lay on the bed thinking about things again. i cried again and i cried till i fell asleep. And just not too long ago, while talking to you, my eyes were pouring. Yes! i use the word "pouring" because this time, the tears flowed like an uncontrolled tap.

我真的不舍得放弃这段恋情。但是事情没像一加一那么简单。我也只好尊重你的决定。

If it was the normal me, i would have continued and persisted for what i believed in and chased after what i want. But because i can see the reason as to why you made the decision, my choice would be to respect yours.

Indeed, i am very glad for things to still turn out fine between us. We can still talk to each other and we can still head out on the streets and walk alongside each other normally. Though hard as it may be for me to suppress my care and concern for you, you will always remain in a special place in my heart.

Too much tears have flowed for the two of us. i hope there will be no more of them coming out from our eyes.

i am confident this new chapter of our lives will be good. =)