It's like playing the game of Snakes and Ladders. You roll the dice and take your chance; you move forward. There can be three results.

(1) You advance normally.
(2) You end up on the box with a ladder and you progress rapidly.
(3) You end up on the box with a snake and you are forced to move many steps back.

Can i just kill the snake?

i guess there's more to learn about 女人. One thing i have learn which can be rather typical in women is that they have the tendency to be 口是心非. Not too long ago, i seem to have learn another characteristic about this species of the homo-sapien, which can be closely related to the previous one. Fickle-mindedness. i do not know if this is the case, but it seems like i'm always getting mixed signals, either all at the same time, or one after another without too far a gap in time. For what happened on the webcam which you managed to read my mind and made me so paiseh, you told me you will prefer to let things take on a natural course and that i should not conciously make the effort to give you the space and time. You used the word "weird". And yet when i decided to lose the conciousness to give you the space and let my heart make the decision, to let things take on a natural course, i seemed to have invaded your space.

The events yesterday evening just keeps coming back to haunt me, haunting me before i sleep and even when i woke up this morning. Everything just went the wrong way. Time, an antidote to almost everything, but right now, it is my obstacle to clear.

One step at a time.