Right now, life isnt as easy as ABC or one plus one. The work which NUS dishes out is so tough, that even when i look at the solutions provided, i still dont understand how the problem is solved. Yes, it is that sucky. Tutorials after tutorials, week after week, half of the time, i entered the tutorial classroom and walked out with more confusion. This is especially so for Chemistry and Electrical Engineering. i'm feeling the stress and panic building up within me. But, i have decided to take things slowly and not bite off more than i can chew. i shall take things one step at a time. Haste makes waste, that's what they say. Although the pace is very fast in university, i shall keep that entrenched deep in my mind.

On a lighter note, academic aside, life has been very fun with my ESE clique. They are an interesting bunch of people, especially for a guy named Soon Huat. He's our primary target for almost anything. You name it, we do it. The relation of stress with his complexion. His "infatuation" with Ms Zhu. His suicidal thoughts and tendecies. His emotional instability. Haha... It's just so funny to poke fun of him. Well, Mr Won, if you're reading this, do know that it's all in the name of fun. Clear your emo spirits, okay? There definitely can be happiness.

Anyway, i applied for a programme in NUS, called Climate Leaders Programme. Sad to say, i didnt make it. Two of my friends managed to get through the interview and i believe they're in it. Chee Yong asked me this evening whether i was sad that i didnt make it through. My answer to him was yes. But now that i look at my current situation, it doesnt seem like i can afford more time for other activities. i have already given up on Kendo. i have given up on one student. Right now, i have to manage my time well to do the many tasks awaiting me. Chemistry mid-terms are coming up and i'm really worried about it. The record has been three times. i have managed to solve problems, getting the right answer ultimately. But know what? My concept was totally wrong. And this isnt exactly getting me happy or excited. In fact, it's making me more worried about my grasp on the knowledge of the module. Freaking sian... i think i need more ECs to make my life in university better. Or, let me bump into my current EC more often. And then there's my NEC. All of a sudden, there has been a change in situation. i do not know what to make out of it but like what my friends said, it's better not to inflate it initially. Things may not turn out as thought. Just like what i have always told myself, "Hope for the best; prepare for the worst." Let's just go slow and see how things unfold at a later time.



We live and learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time