It was CAC (Cultural Activity Club) Camp at first. ChESS Camp second. And right now, i'm participating in Engineering Orientation Week. After going through these, and with people being more interactive and honest with me, i got an idea of what kind of first impression i leave on people i met and who have come to be in my social circle.

These were the adjectives used on me:
- serious
- fierce
- siao-on
- smart
- looks like the 乖 (guai) type

On the first two adjectives, i must admit i look like this when i dont smile. But do you know when i'm not smiling, it only means that i am just being expression-less and that i am just blanking out? No, i am not a fierce person, except when i am giving tuition to my primary school kids, which is to say i am not like this by nature. i mean, when blanking out, obviously there is nothing in my mind, and with nothing in my mind, how will i look like if i were to be smiling without any reason? Wont i appear to be a lunatic? Of course, if there were to be any positive, happy or funny thoughts in my mind as i recall on something, i will definitely smile without effort. There is one reason, or excuse, i have come up with regarding why i look so serious or fierce when i'm expression-less. And that will be due to the baby fats on my cheeks. To smile, i will need to overcome the baby fats to bring on a grin. i guess there's nothing much i can do about this. i came onto this world looking like this. i will just have to wait for my baby fats to go away...

On the third and fourth adjective, i dont know how i earned them. i guess i just happened to have volunteered in some of the games during CAC camp and being more vocal for one of the game and as a result, i earned the siao-on tag. On being smart, i just happened to be able to correctly and rapidly guessed the words in this game that we played. My friend and i were led to a place while the other people in my OG, together with the OGLs, came out with a visual image using their bodies as well as using anything which they could find in their vicinity. i would say they were good in coming up with the images, that's why i could easily guessed them correctly. It isnt so much of because i am smart, although i know i am (haha...!), it is just that they were good.

On looking like the 乖 (guai) type, well, what can i say? Once again, i can only say that i look like this. Though for most of my life thus far, i admit i have been pretty guai. But, let me say that looks can be deceiving. Or rather, dont judge a book by its cover. There was once i mouthed a profanity in front of my OGL and she immediately exclaimed that she couldnt believe what she had just heard coming out from my mouth. i mean, i try not to say anything vulgar but you know, after being in the army, i will definitely pick up a thing or two. It is not that i learnt those vocabulary in the army because obviously, i would have heard them waaaaay before that. What i have picked up is the habit of saying the uncouth language. Thinking back, i dont think i ever used any of those words before army. The most lethal word, if i recalled correctly, is shit. Haha, shit to me now is like bread and butter in my vocabulary. It's like a level minus one in my profanity library. Shit, which used to invoke the face of disbelief when you mentioned the word in primary school, cannot be considered an uncouth word anymore.

Actually, i have my fair share of disciplinary problems when i was young. i bet most people never knew i had a really serious case in the past whereby i was sentenced to public caning as a result of something which appear pretty faint in my memory right now. i just know it involved money. But it definitely wasnt stealing. Only remember it as something related to extortion. i bet YOU never knew about this, right? Another memorable case was that i became an arsonist. But, i became one by chance. i remembered i was playing with matchsticks. i pressed a stick down on the striking area at an adjacent angle and then i flicked it. And i vaguely remember not knowing where the stick flew to. i only remembered minutes later, there was a mad rush of pails of water from my grandparents' home plus the neighbours' to extinguish the flames along the common corridor. Haha, now that i recall back, i really cant believe i had such a past. But let me stress that i am not promoting such acts. I AM NOT, OKAY?