i dont really know how to start on this. My experience in relationship is almost next to zero. i even wonder whether my previous encounter can be considered as something. But even so, i will not let this diminish what i'm going to discuss. They say that men are from Mars while women, from Venus. The way of thinking has quite a huge disparity between the two genders. 20 years of my life and still living on, even though i never like generalising and simplifying things, there were many a times when i found this to be true.

It is a combination of bliss and torture whilst in a relationship.

We are intelligent beings called homo sapiens. We never move our hands towards a flame because we have learnt that we will only hurt ourselves by doing so. We keep ourselves away from pain and danger. If such a basic conditioned reflex action has been imbued in our head, why is it that knowing there is the element of pain and misery while being in a relationship, most of us still go in search of it? The logical explanation can only be that the bliss outweigh the torture. Or that love is blind.

This terrible complexity of human is making me struggle to write this entry. It is so difficult to condense my thoughts and put them into words because these thoughts of mine are flying everywhere. Some them are very unique; others are too specific to an individual case. i'll just attempt to wrap up this entry with this case that i'm facing.

To him,
If you have already decided on your course of action, i will give you my undying support. Hope is good, because it drives us forward. It will be your beacon of light in the darkest hours. Stand strong. Stand firm. Ensure faith, for you will surmount all obstacles that come your way.

To her,
You know that a huge portion of what is happening now is because of your actions. But nobody is perfect. And with that, it is very important you proceed to remedy it. Though quite an irony, it is true. Love is selfish, yet it is also about being gracious. And i believe you know who has been showing most of the graciousness in this relationship.





Arghhh.... i never thought writing this entry will be so difficult. Sometimes i dont even know if i'm making any sense. This entry doesnt have a proper flow.