i just cant help but feel that time is passing me by so quickly. The truth is, we all have 24 hours in a day, no more, no less. My 12 days of block leave is ending, with my last day tomorrow. i'm feeling very sad now, that i have to bid farewell to my civilian life once again, like how i did on 6th Jan 2006.

The posting results came out yesterday at 10am. The website was flooded with privates like me. We were all eager to know where our next path in NS would be. It was strange, because i felt more nervous having to know my posting more than my A Levels result. The only reason i could think of was that before the release of the A Level results, my mind was occupied by training in Tekong. But as for my posting results, i had all the time in the world from my block leave. (***) i did not get into OCS nor did i get into SISPEC. So, i can climb as high as a coporal that's all. No ranks on the shoulders. Low rank on the biceps. But never mind. i'm not just going to let this fact bother me. In fact, the main reason of getting into OCS was for the high pay which i'll receive after commission. For my vocation as a (***), the job scope is pretty dangerous. To compensate that, my pay will be high too, even though i'm only just a coporal. Oh well, give and take. i got what i wanted. The money, as well as a slack vocation which i prayed to get myself into if i didnt get into OCS. But i'm not too sure. i'm not sure how slack is slack for my vocation. One thing i'm sure of is that when the hardships come during training, it wont be slack. The other sucky thing about my vocation is that my base is in (***), which is damn far away from my place. Sigh! If there is one thing which i can find comfort in all these, it is that i have no confinement period in the beginning, unlike the officer cadet trainees who will have a 3 week confinement period. Good luck guys. Good luck yaowen, daowei & ziyang. i'm so pretty darn sure the three of you will last through the entire 3 weeks in one piece.

The 2nd last day of block leave. i feel so relunctant to give up my civilian life and go back to be a soldier. However, no matter how i feel, i still have to go back and serve the nation. To put it in the nicest way possible, it is for the people i love. The training i receive, together with the many others receiving their individual kind of training, will ensure every Singaporean's freedom and safety.

Be strong. Be happy. Be safe.

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