The first half of the A-Level shit has finally passed. This week had been pretty terrible.

i totally underestimated the A-Level Maths paper. Thinking that the standard wouldnt be high, like how i felt during the O-Level, coupled with my experience with the 2004 A-Level Maths Papers, i thought the 2005 papers would be a breeze. A gravely mistaken attitude. i should have sticked to doing prelim papers and immerse myself in questions of higher standards and of a greater level of difficulty. But Mathematics has become a thing of the past. i dont think i will be integrating (cosec x)(cot x) anytime soon in the future.

Chemistry Paper 3 was a disaster too, especially Organic Chemistry and Food Chemistry. An entire Organic Chemistry question on intepreting datas to find out several organic chemicals, 10 marks, and i blasted it away. Nah, i just wasnt able to do it that's all. All this while, even in Common Test as well as Prelims, i have never manage to do well for such a question. Aggression is building up in me. i need to channel that to everything positive and do well for Paper 2 and 3.

Talking about aggression, it is the theme in the GP Paper 2 today. GP was fairly good on the whole. i managed to write something decent for Paper 1, and for the first time in my life, i managed to write a decent answer for my Application Question in Paper 2. Woo!! But my essays as well as my answers to Paper 2 have pretty much been substandard all this while. So all i'm aiming and hoping for is a B for my GP.

Only a few more days to the end of my JC life. i have set the countdown timer to coincide with the 'end-time' for the Chemistry Paper 1 this Friday.

It's really funny how i'm suppressing my excitement about the end of the A-Levels. i try very hard not to think about how i'll enjoy after next Friday so much so that i'm feeling numb right now. i feel like a robot, executing commands one after another. i want to feel like a human but i am just staying from that area for now, because once i get back in touch with feelings and emotions, i fear i wont be able to settle myself down to study. The urge to play, enjoy and procrastinate can be overwhelming.