If you're wondering what the hell the previous post was all about, with all those strike-outs for almost the entire entry, i'm going to explain it here.

i thought i commited a grave crime in incurring the wrath of one of my junior. It'll be very embarrassing for me to go into detail on what i did so i shall spare my cheeks from any blood-rush. Anyway, as i was saying, i thought i did something wrong. i checked it out with my junior's friend to see if my junior had talked to her about it. Stupid me. In the end, by her successful reverse psychology, i told her what happened. But i cant blame myself because if if i had not done so, i would not have been able to confirm with her. Subsequent messages from my junior's friend made me think that i was really in trouble. i sent an SMS of apology to my junior the next morning. She replied asking what wrong i had done to her, wondering also if my mind had blown a fuse from mugging. i thought she was faking it, trying to mask everything as if nothing had ever happen. i bumped into my junior personally in school and, again, she asked if i was alright. 'Are you okay? Too much mugging already is it?'. i thought she was still faking it. But judging from her expression and tone, i couldnt help think that her words were for real. When we parted, i messaged her asking if she really didnt know the reason why i apologised. She stood by what she had told me earlier and began digging out the reason from me.

The thought of her faking continued lingering in my mind. i got really confused.

By night, which was this morning actually, i realised she didnt know what was happening. i also realised that i had been fooled by my junior's friend. Damn! And i feel ultra embarrased on apologising so profusely for something which was totally non-existent.

How about those lines which i didnt strike out? Well, they are either something which truly happened or something which i had learnt. So, they dont deserved the strike-out.

Anyway, i had been feeling down for the past two weeks. Now that everything is crystal clear, the sky is sunny once more. But with prelims in a few days time, i wont be able to enjoy the sun, for now. Mr. Sun, wait for me. You owe me something. You owe me a tan. i have been fair for far too long. i need to balance the shade and tone of my skin colour.

-always.aim.high.neva.say.u.die.success.will.come.to.anyone.who.try-