This is killing me. Newton's 3rd Law is against me. The more i try to put information into my head, the greater the resistance by my mind to stop them from going in. i am so dead. How to do well in an examination if i cant freaking hell recall my facts and formulae? This is especially more important when i'm taking Chemistry, Physics and Maths as A-Level subjects.

Chemistry. If i dont memorise anything, especially for Food Chemistry, i can just bloody hell throw all my marks away.

Physics. i need to memorise all those formulae! Plus techniques on answering complex questions. i do not know why Physics appear so complicated to me in every form.

Maths. All those formulae. Dont memorise? This is equivalent to jumping off a building.

i hate memorising. What is the point of memorising? So that you can have an outpour of knowledge or mental diarrhea during examination to secure your 'A's? What is the link between memorising and learning? i dont see the link. i prefer conceptual learning. That is more effective. In this age of advanced technology, you can get information at your fingertips with some clicks of the mouse. Just go online. You need this formulae? Just know the keywords to put into a search engine and viola, you get what you want. You want to know which is the ideal temperature and pressure to achieve the greatest yield for ammonia? Go search it online. They have it in cyberspace!

Pardon my myopic views. i'm just freaking sian at having to memorise so much shit right now for prelims. i know this is inevitable. There is no other alternatives to this problem of mine other than to quit school.

This prelims can be considered finished. i know i'm going to score very badly. i will be disappointing people. My target grades of A(Maths), B(Chemistry), and C(Physics) are only but a dream never to become reality. i have been procrastinating all this while. i can blame no one but myself. What's worse is that i started my revision really late. Everything which requires memory work, i initiated revision for them too late. All i depend now, is luck and what's left in my memory. The things which i've studied and implanted into my mind in the past. i hope those facts and formulae are still clinging onto my brain matter. White matter, grey matter. It doesnt matter. Just come back to me when i need you. i await your timely arrival.