Thursday, August 18, 2005
i met the my vice-principal today. Justin warned me to keep my distance away from him because the he said that he is gay. He said he saw him locked arms with another angmoh guy on Orchard Rd. Real stupid. There are so many people on Orchard Rd. Just because NJ is a mugger school, it doesnt mean that there wouldnt be exceptions. Argh, never mind. This wasnt the main issue. But Justin warned my to shield my chest and be as far away from him as possible, which i did.
So i went into Meeting Room 2 with Stef. What a surprise, i saw Rachael in there too. i thought she has been doing well in her studies. But i could have known why she's in MR2. It is for the same reason why i'm in MR2 too, Nationals Track & Field. i just do not know why the hell Nationals is so damn bloody near to Common Test time. Well, actually, anytime is also bad. The JC curriculum is really stifling, and no matter how much more i try to complain to anyone, nothing will change.
Coincidence Part I
As i approached the Admin Office, i caught sight of Diana with 2 of her other classmates. i could only exclaim 'damn' and 'what the @#$%' silently in my head. What a freaky coincidence. i knew immediately that she was heading straight for MR2 too, knowing that she did badly for Common Test too.
Coincidence Part II
Into MR2, took attendance, and quickly find a seat with Stef. Diana came in with 2 of her other classmates. My speculation over at the Admin Office door wasnt wrong. They, too, took attendance and quickly find a seat. Diana sat right next to me, but with a little gap in between us. The reason couldnt come to me any more obvious.
Coincidence Part III
It was the 'isolation' part of the session. Mr Mark Low had his undivided attention fixed onto each and every one of us in the room to ask us for our goals in the upcoming Prelims. "And you, Guo Wei. What will be your targeted grades?". i went, "A, B, C". "And for your A-Levels itself?", he continued. Without a shudder, i said "A, A, B". He turned his attention to the next person. Wouldnt you know, it was her once again.
i am not trying to prove anything here. If there is, i am just saying i am a very observant boy, that will be all. But seriously, i just cant help but think that it is more of a joke to me than just pure coincidence. i study probability in Maths and i knew the chances are so freaking rare for such situations to occur all in a single day. If someone up there is reading this, my weak heart cant take this joke!
At least i can be glad something good came of this. i realise that i can be comfortable in her presence, no more getting fidgety and the blood-rushing sensation i experienced in the past. But i must say that my relationship with her is just like a dangling piece of broken branch from the tree. Not fully attached to the tree in its original state, nor is it entirely detached and fallen onto the ground, ready to be part of the next phase in the carbon cycle. This feeling sucks. And i dont really see any possibility of resolving this 'dangling branch' any time in the near future. Or for the future itself.
