Thursday, July 28, 2005
i saw this giant today when i was crossing the road to get to Tiong Bahru Plaza. He was damn tall la. When i brushed past him, i estimated my height to be near his shoulders. Omigosh, isnt he freaking tall? And i stand at a reasonable distance of 1.70m from the ground. Can you just imagine the giant?
Well, anyway, visited my classmate, Eugene, at SGH. i didnt know he went for a surgery involving his heart. It wasnt a major operation. Anaesthesia was localised. But i feel that a local anaesthesia is more disgusting and scary than a general one. i can remember my one and only localised anaesthesia surgery to remove a corn from my right sole. The doctor sucks la, actually. The injection of the drug was more painful than the removal of my corn and flesh with a scalpel and surgical scissors. i shall spare you from further details. In any case, i read that a localised anaesthesia is better than a general one because the latter may cause a lower blood count after operation.
Had quantum physics quiz today. i feel very depressed. i thought i had been paying full attention and having great understanding in this topic. But after going through the quiz, obtaining a score of 15/22, and looking at the way i present my answers, i immediately had the same feeling as Nick Stokes at the last moment when the ventilation fan went dead. For non-CSI fans and for those who didnt watch the season finale of CSI Season 5, Nick Stokes was forcefully abducted from a crime scene and put into a coffin-like glass (or some polymer?) container buried underground. When the power source for his ventilation fan went dead, he knew he wasnt going to make it. He held a pistol, which was prepared for him to kill himself as and when he wants to, and aimed up his head. Anyway, what i'm trying to say here is that i felt so depressed. Yeah, you can tell me that i've passed and i should just study harder for prelims. But, i feel that i could have done better. You know you have the potential but you arent filling the gap to reach your peak. This is my source of depression.
One night's sleep and i'll be cleared of my depression. Dont worry. There is hardly anything, right now, that is capable of sticking around my mind for long. i live by code, "Tomorrow will be a better day." So cliche, but i prefer to delude myself. Nah, it cant be considered delusion. Maybe tomorrow can be a better day if i embrace it right. It's all in the attitude.
Double GP tomorrow. And i've yet to finish my AJC comprehension paper. Heck! i shall just do my evening prayer and go to sleep. Ciao!
