I am not sure whether I did the right thing. It could have easily been a mistake, it could have easily been a brave thing to do. But I just am not sure. The thing with girls. I just cannot seem to fathom. They can be simple and ask for little at times. They can be so highly complex and difficult at other times.

I dont really know any of her close friends. So my mind is just running wild with all the imaginations flooding it. One thought will be that she's happy with the gift. Period. Another thought will be that she's so damn paiseh that I had given her a flower on Valentine's Day and not know a damn hell what I am trying to do. Next thought will be that she just dont give a damn hell what I am doing. Receive the flower. When it wilts, throw it away.

There's just no way I can cure myself of this shit. Cos I just happen to have nobody to help me! In any case, I may be able to find someone to help me check out the situation. But not this.

I think I sound damn pissed... Hmm... I think I am really pissed. The thing with girls. Or maybe it is only just her? I think she's a nice girl la, but just too nice. She doesnt really show her annoyance, so you'll never really know that she's feeling so. Yeah, a smile brightens up someone's day. But an-almost-forever smile hanging just below your nose covers all irritation and sadness. How am I suppose to know what you are feeling when all you do is smile all the time?

This entry is just full of nonsense. I bet no one is able to fully understand what I am saying. Even I dont. I am just practically spewing everything that is cramming inside my head now. Strange, everyone's blog just almost mention at least a thing about CNY but I dont. And the first entry since the onset of CNY is this crappy blog entry. Argh. I think I'm losing it.

Fuck it. I dont know why I'm feeling so pissed now. Could be due to insufficient sleep. Lack of endorphine? Stress out by work? Maybe Alvin Bek could be a factor. Or was it just something that I heard and done today? Who knows? Nobody knows... I do not know too.