Argh! I am so torn! Two sides are ripping me apart. The brotherhood on one side and 05s16 on the other.

I cant make a choice, even though I knew of this situation long before hand. This saturday, which is tomorrow, there is going to be a brotherhood gathering over at daowei's place. At the same time but different place, there is a 05s16 chalet BBQ going on. One is in the west and the other in the east.

This huge gap in distance is preventing me from getting the best out of both world. To be extremely truthful, I am more slanted towards the 05s16 BBQ gathering. But I am still holding on to the thought of going to daowei's place because this time will be a time of full attendance, if I turn up. I am not creating history by not being there. Argh! I am so frustrated.

Chermaine said something which put me in such a fix. The brotherhood will always be there for me, so I can still make it for future gatherings. 05s16 may not be together forever. There may be shuffles after 1st 3 months. But I am crossing my fingers hard. Hopefully, 05s16 will stay as original as possible after March.

You cant get the best out of both world. I am still in search of the best formula to prove this statement wrong. Right now, I am thinking of asking my elder brother to be my chauffeur tomorrow. But I just cannot count on that, because his schedule is unpredictable. Argh!