How much do you know yourself? Do you know about anything that you'll hate to the core? I do, at least for something which happened to me just a while back. I was badly scolded by my mother for something which I seriously doubt that I can be blamed for. I hate it when this happens.

For those people who know me, or who have read the entry below, RoadRun'05 had taken a toll on me for the last two weeks. And especially so for Wednesday to Friday. Who will blame me if I shout for sleep? And so, I slept at 12+am last night and woke up at 12pm this morning. Ate my breakfast and fall asleep, again, on the sofa at 1pm. This time, I slept for another 4 hours and woke up at 5pm. I was still tired, but I woke up because my mum just came back from my dad's shop. There was a strange reason as to why I ended my slumber marathon. And it was because I felt that there was trouble coming my way from my mum. Boy, was I totally right about that.

My mum came home and headed for the kitchen. She saw what was in the sink and she blew up. I didnt wash up the dishes which I used for eating my breakfast. She saw what was on the kitchen table and blew up too, first at my younger brother, then at me. I asked my younger brother to buy lunch for me. He left it on the kitchen table. Not his fault. But because I went to sleep and left the packet of rice on the table, my mum turned angry. 'The ants will come!' were all the shrills and screams coming from her mouth. She was also muttering away as to what I was doing all these while that kept me busy from washing the dishes and leaving lunch on the kitchen table.

Sleep was the answer I wanted to tell her. I was so damn freaking tired la! Wah lau! And she was also blasting away at me for not showering in the afternoon. I mean, I was so damn tired that I could just fall asleep on the sofa even after sleeping for 12 hours. All thanks to RoadRun'05. She didnt even think of the reason as to why I slept so much, not even popping the question to ask if I was ill or what. She thought that I was sleeping so much because of the s10 gathering last night that might have made me all so tired. Also, my mum is a person who will just bring up everything she's not happy about during the scolding, whether it is something that happened just right before, or whether it is about something that happened eons ago...

I wanted so much to explain everything to her. But her non-stop scolding just puts me off, so much so that I just didnt want to care about whatever she's saying right there and then. I just pushed myself straight for the bathroom for my shower. Her scolding included on why I had to go for the s10 gathering over at Jacqueline's place. She even asked me whether Orientation 2005 is over. She thinks that as an OGL, my duties extend till the day Orientation is over. What the fuck is that la? My mum is just totally nonsensical today.

I just aint able to see how my mum thinks. RoadRun'05 is assigned to me and I have to perform and fulfil my commitments responsibly. The reason why I came home so late for these few days was because there were many discussions and meetings needed for a successful event on Friday! Why cant I just be a responsible OGL? It isnt everyday that 05s16 is meeting up everyday after school for dinner and for play. You're afraid that I'll end up like last year? 05s16 isnt just like the first-3-months s10, where play forms a big part of our lives last year. At least that is for last year. 05s16 isnt an all-play-no-work class. Besides, I am only just an OGL to the class, not a member in that class. For this, I am already a little distant from my wonderful OG. The gatherings are the best means which I can go for to catch up with them. And for the s10 gathering? What the fucking fuck la? You mean I cant even go for a class gathering? This isnt just a simple class gathering, okay? It is a combined class gathering for junior and senior class.

I just dont know what to say about my mum. Whatever I had just said in the paragraph above, I bet she doesnt understand half of it. She doesnt see how my life as a teenager functions. I see the importance in socialising and keeping in contact with people. Whatever that she is scolding me about just seemed like telling me that life is all about studying right now.

Luckily, time seems to be the water dousing on the flames ablaze on me. My blood pressure has dropped since then. And luckily, yesterday was a good day. So, I am not going to just end this day with such a bad mood. I'll talk about yesterday's wonderful gathering another time! Ciaoz!