Suddenly, afghanboy feels that he doesnt know myname very well. How can that be? Yesh, it's true. I do not know why too. afghanboy wasnt able to comprehend the words of a wise man today. Wait, he could understand what this wise man was saying, but he couldnt fit the description and the words of this man to Jason. The link just wasnt there. Or is it because afghanboy failed to see the link between the words and the person? afghanboy has certainly fallen into the pit of helplessness.

The above story is not a fable. It is true. This morning, on my way to Student Lounge, I met Mr Lee. There wasnt only just a simple morning greeting. He came and talked to me.

Yes, this sounds bad. But luckily, it wasnt like I had broken some school rules or whatsoever. He came and told me about some problems that I may be facing right now in my life, certain things that I cant seem to be carrying out happily or with the right attitude. My mind went blank after hearing what he said. I do not have the habit of doubting his words. Therefore, I suddenly felt like a stranger to myself.

It is bad enough to know that there is/are something wrong about yourself. But knowing that you couldnt identify the problem(s) makes it much much much more worse. Is there a fault lurking somewhere around me? If not a fault, then am I sending out a wrong message to somebody out there? Someone out there had certainly made a mistake if there really isnt a problem lying inside me. I feel......rather empty inside my mind and heart right now. I cant seem to find out what's wrong with me!

This is starting to make me feel frustrated... 5% anger, 5% irritated, 90% helpless. Someone please help me!!!