neva knew a person can be so troubled this way... i roughly know how izzit like, but becoz i haven experienced such a thing, i cant say i really understand... well, since u've made that decision, stick to it, be not shaky anymore, and try not to feel so wasted liao... i'll back your decision strong and hard... life is juz like dat... some things always pop out at the wrong moments... a thing not meant for u will neva be meant for u... dun respond to this, to whoever that is, for fear of letting the cat out frm the bag... u know wad i mean...