i've actually been thinking abt this for a long time...

i really wonder wad am i gd at... am i juz useless at everything?? or maybe i'm juz a jack of all trade but master of none... it's really sad that i'm actually a master of none... i cant think of something which i'm really gd at... i mean, other pple arnd me, they're at least gd at something, which i can think of... it's one of these, or all combined... either they r damn pro at a sport or skill, or they hold some leadership positions, or maybe even that they r damn smart...

let's look at the pple arnd me!!

(1) yaowen... he's a really gd swimmer and that he's the entree president... and who has a wonderful no. (2)

(2) huitze is a JJ's student councilor and who has a wonderful no. (1)

(3) daowei, he's damn pro at badminton and soccer, and his common test grades? it's a BBCD... and who has a wonderful no. (4)

(4) jasin, gd at badminton... and who has a wonderful no. (3)

(5) weiming, his swimming skills r improving alot, so much so that yaowen also thinks that he's gd now...

(6) j.low, he's gd at squash...

(7) ziyang, gd softballer and a cadet lieutanent in ncc and who has a wonderful shuk in

(8) lionel, in student council and bowling, and he's really gd at pool...

(9) jiangshui, top shooter in air pistol in the whole singapore... and who has a wonderful no. (10)

(10) lynette, solaris house rep and who has a wonderful no. (9)

(11) justin, such a gd canoeist that he is those few reserves for the j2 canoeist, and he's smart too, and who has a wonderful sinwee

(12) stef, hockey girls captain, and a really gd hockey player who originates frm crescent hockey

(13) regina, mainly juz fat, but she's the netball captain

(14) jiahwa, secretary for indian dance, and who has a wonderful jianrong

(15) harland, tennis boys captain, quite pro at basketball and soccer too

(16) amanda tay, lignum house capt and student councilor combined!

(17) daryl xu, NJ band quatermaster, and a bloody smart ass... really smart okay?

(18) yuxuan, NCC cadet lieutanent, and who has a wonderful 'J' in hwa chong

(19) samuel xie, 04s10's boss, NJ PA quatermaster, and some senior position for SJI scouts

(20) anna wong, plain smart girl...

(21) eileen tay, another plain smart girl, and in some girl guides' senior position

(22) eugene soh, smart acsi boy and represented NJ for the choir olympics

(23) ningru, represented NJ for the chior olympics

(24) jacquline, represented NJ for the chior olympics

(25) yulin, a band drummer, who's playing for NDP in the mixed school band

(26) huijia, NJ hockey player, almost equivalent to stef

(27) vince, his gift of knowledge which lacks that tad of motivation, and his immense knowledge of astronomy

(28) mr tiew, great econs teacher-in-the-making, NUS archer, and who has a wonderful cute girlfrend

(29) diana, NJ student council honourary secretary

and the list juz goes on and on... i really wonder wad i am gd at... and practically nothing comes to my mind... i'm not gd at a sport... i'm not gd at any skills, okay, maybe MR a.k.a PA... but i'm only pro when it comes to using ACS(I) equipments... otherwise i'm as gd as nothing... i'm not gd at my studies... juz looking at my common tests grades, EEEF... i'm beginning to lose it... i'm juz not making gd use of myself in this society... i'm really looking for something, a skill, a sport... something... that i can really master...

i'm actually looking towards kendo... i've this passion and huge interest for this sport... i really want to go and take up kendo... but it's quite an expensive sport... although in the beginning, u dun need that big sum of money yet... u juz use the basic stuff... it's the armour that's not cheap... but u dun use the armour, so it's not so expensive in the beginning... well, the real problem is... kendo is not v.popular in singapore... u gotta go to the singapore kendo club to learn it... which means that i gotta travel here and there, or something like dat... but i also know that dunno which poly in singapore is offering kendo too... well, i'm not in that poly so forget it... so singapore kendo club is the only place left... but i really dunno... dunno whether i can afford the time for this activity... i sure do hav the passion and interest for it... i cant make up my mind now... it's hard... especially when i'm still struggling for my school work... hAiz... huiyan did tell me to pursue something that u're really interested in, for that will make u a more happy person... really? i certainly believe so... but does reality permits it? that's another thing... reality sucks!!

-unless.u.let.go.of.wad.u've.got,u'll.never.hav.anything.greater.than.that-