Friday, July 09, 2004
i feel so screwed up... in terms of common test i mean... got back a few things liao... like the whole physics paper, chem mcq and econs mcq. the only thing that's keeping me going is my econs mcq. that's the only thing i passed, and at least scoring an average score. as for my physics paper and chem mcq, they're a total failure. hAiz, kinda sad and disappointed la! got a F9 for physics, and a 6/20 for chem mcq. i tell y'all, when u're not in luck, u're really not in luck for everything. i mean, chem mcq, there's this thing abt probability. when i'm down on luck, even probability turns away frm me. first ten questions, that's where i got my 6 pts, the remaining 10 questions, i got them all wrong. the last 3 questions, i did the worst mistake i can ever commit. i din shade them at all, din hav the time to even scribble some shit or tikam! kanasai! question 11-17, choose also all choose wrongly. dunno wad's wrong wif my luck, probability juz doesnt want to cooperate wif me! seriously damn disappointed wif myself, but it's not like they're all unexpected. i knew that i'll screw up my physics badly, but i've always had that hope that i maybe can manage to squeeze an 'AO' pass or something. not to say i despise jiangshui or wad... but his luck was really good la. physics mcq, he really anyhow do. anyhow as in really anyhow. he knew the first answer to the first question, continue to read on frm question 2-5, din understand them. he decided to juz anyhow shade the answers he liked, without even reading question 6-20 la! wad is this? and he pass his mcq. wtf? y cant i juz get that luck? and his luck was extended all the way to allowing to get an 'AO' pass... well, who knows, maybe i'm juz really not as smart as he is, to deserve and 'AO' pass... hAiz, i'm really lost for words. i really juz dun feel like looking at the rest of my common tests results. it's depressing and scary. i really hate myself... i dunno how am i gonna tell my mum. the best way out is to let her know everything all at once. i'm damn screwed! fuck!
not juz my studies r going fuck... my cca also... it's like... i dunno how to say la. training normally, but the coach juz somehow seems to ignore me. i can really understand y, i'm the one who always pon training last time. for example today, asking for the workout, the sprinters were in a grp. 3 pple joined the better grp to train. me and another person trained separately. but this other person is having special training coz he wun be able to take the tougher training, coz he also haven trained for a while due to falling ill. but still, the coach gave him attention at least to tell him his workout. he juz told him and din tell me anything. kAoz... i gotta open my mouth to ask him, 'mr yeo, do i join him?' and he juz gave a positive reply... that's all... wah lau... i feel like shit la! fuck! nj is practically screwing me upside-down, inside-out, left right centre...
author: jason.guowei.afghanboy.fireboy.cockroach.failure
>>daowei: wad u say is so true, she stands up there every morning. how to achieve wad i want to achieve. i think it's not possible la, it's juz how i see her now, it's gotta change... to quote it frm yw again, "if you love her, let her go. if she comes back to you, she was yours all along. if she doesn't then she wasn't."
