hmmz... since i've decided to give up officially, which was quite a painful decision, i'm gonna let the world know. but my version of the world only equals to those who ask me. like amanda and huiyan, who i believe will every now and then, ask me abt how's me and 'd'. so it's like, i guess they shld know, so that they'll know that the fairy tale has ended, and also to make things less miserable for me. i dun feel v.gd when they asked abt me and her, and then they asked me another day coz they dunno wad happen. for those other than the pple in the back row, those who deserve to know, like huiyan and amanda, i'll tell them everything if they want. i'll spare the details for the rest, whom i think shld know, but not so much. it's also tiring to recount everything leh! oh well, y did i mention this again, and y this decision...? well, amanda popped out the question, "how's things between u and 'd'?" that's when i suddenly feel that she shld know. ya, and i've told her wad happen too, in detail... almost.

yay... finally, we've duped a key for the locker. and nono gotta be extra and come share the locker with us! haha, u slut! slut slut slut! the locker not v.big u know?? now there's three official users of the lockers, plus many other extras like reg,jiahwa,siewee, for all these pple wanna extra and throw some stuffs inside the locker. hAiz... wad to do... but anyway, i'm glad that finally, there's keys for all users for that locker.

okay... i gotta learn to be less of an irritant and NOT being an extra. i guess i've been doing this a little too often. the nxt time when i go out with js and lyn, and that there's only the two of them, i'm gonna leave for sure. even if they ask me to stay, i'll feel super weird, embarrassed, extra, left out, blah blah blah if i stay. many many more lah! i'm gonna do that for sure. if there's other pple, maybe i'll still consider walking arnd tgt! but if not, then bYe-bYe. it's quite miserable walking arnd with them, but it's also quite miserable not being able to go out with pple i want, not that i hav many choices. i feel that i've been too much of an extra at this period. first, it's my cousin and her bf, second it's js and lyn. and third, as yet, which i hope not to be one, which is between yw and ht. i'm not gonna make this mistake for the third case. i'm never never going to... pray hope that i can achieve that. luckily for another couple which i know, which is dw and jas, i never made this mistake. *phew* never will hav the chance lah, luckily! boy will i get lonely nowadays! i shall go flirt with my books and notes bah! hAiz, so sad! so sad! boohoohoo....!!

there's training tmr! and i'm finally going for one, like after missing out on 5 trainings. 3 was becoz i was sick, and 2 becoz i dun feel like going. dang... i'm a bad boy. retribution awaits me! juz wait and see... i better go sleep early. training is on in the morning leh! hAiz... shit lah, track training has become like a chore to me. this is bad. this shld not happen this way. jialat! my passion for track is dying. oh wait, the passion was never there in the first place, it's juz that i joined track to keep fit, and also there's no other ccas to join in nj. nj's ccas r a pathetic lot lah. guess i'm picky too, but wad to do? they ask me to pick mah...