finally home! yes, again, i was away frm home for more than 24hrs. this time, over at daowei's place! for our brotherhood gathering! heehee! this was one long wait for this event!

i feel so embarrassed to say this, but yet i'm proud to say this too. haha! i got really really excited over this gathering-cum-bbq thingy that the nite before, i couldn't fall asleep. it's mainly becoz of this thing, and also partly becoz of the stupid rain that was falling non-stop thru the nite. the rain kept on splattering onto my window, and the sound is damn bloody irritating, can't let me hav a peaceful nite's rest. oh well, it's also becoz of the gathering again. it's been a long time since i was excited abt something that i lost sleep over it. i thought this only happens when i was young, getting excited over things like holiday trips or some other stuff... haha!

anyway, the day of ther gathering, i was still busy with something else. and it's my cousin's com. i dunno wad went into me, but wad i did on that day was like kinda mad lah, but i still did it. it's like, i gotta go get her keyboard and mouse to fix up her com. it's not like my house has got no keyboard or mouse, but juz that the connector heads r different. and those suitable to my cousin's cpu, i do not have them. so how? no choice lor, gotta go get hers frm her place. so on saturday, it was like a mad trip to and fro many places.

let's see how it all started. i left my home for my cousin's workplace, club 21 dkny cafe at a building nxt to orchard towers. for this leg of my trip, it was v.troublesome. i gotta take bus service 65, frm a bus stop that i gotta walk for 10min frm my home, and ride it till wheelock place. frm there, i gotta walk for another 15min to orchard towers. for all these, i was juz trying to get my cousin's home keys. rite after getting them, i had to walk past wheelock again, to a bus stop to take 106 to clementi. upon arriving at my destination, i was damn bloody hungry. i haven taken my lunch. so, i settled it at a mkt near my cousin's home. heng siA! settled my lunch, and off to her place to get her keyboard and mouse, and then it's off to MY home! put down the stuffs at my place, and it's off to orchard towers again, to return the keys to my cousin.same journey as how i described juz now. and frm there, it's off to daowei's place for the gathering-cum-bbq finally. and how did i got there? frm the same bus stop that i went to, to get to clementi. haha! to put things short, all the bus stops that i saw for that day, i saw them twice. all these, juz for my cousin's computer! haha, i guess i'm juz determined to fix up my cousin's com. she's such a nice person to me, so all these efforts r worth everything! over at her cafe, my cousin treated me to rocky road fudge, a chocolate-marshmallow cake that has an overdose of chocolate! oh yeah, it's chocolatey fabulous! haha! and also a cup of my usual drink there, iced chocolate!

whoa! double chocolate! it's great lah! although bad for the throat , i dun care. my cousin, who i call her my fairy godma too, tgt with her frend-cum-colleague, who has also become my frend, were saying that i'm gonna shoot blood frm my nose for sure. wad else? such high dosage of chocolate, and i'm going for bbq later lah! and earlier on for lunch, i was eating chicken chop! wah! i dunno wad's gonna become of me lah! it's not the fat part that i worry, coz i hav no such worries! haha! hope i dun get too heaty and kana sore throat or other shit, and hinder my path to more glorious food! better not happen man! haha!

the gathering-cum-bbq! i tell y'all! it's the best man! all my wait has not been in vain. to think i even lost sleep for this! haha! got to daowei's place kinda late, after all the mambo jumbo business i was doing for my fairy godma. when i reached there, the fire has alrdy started! omigosh, i thought i was always the firestarter? oh well, now there's someone else who can do the job. and it's the super girl-guide huitze. haha! din see how she do it lah, so i dunno whether pro anot. juz for yaowen's sake, i'll say, "whoa whoa whoa! very pro lah! surpass me like nobody's business! i cannot fight alrdy. i shld know my placing." haha! but not that i wanna boast lah, but my record timing to start a bbq fire, was arnd 8 mins. which is like get the fire to burn the charcoal and we can leave it as it is, come back later to start bbq kind of thing. yeah! that time was under pressure lah, cant really remember the situation, but was like, someone had to leave, and we were playing mahjong until quite long. so i was like, running straight to the pit, put out the charcoal in a pro's way, lay the firestarters, and start burning. this was over at my aunt's place lah. i guess under pressure, almost anything is possible. haha!

know the five elements of life? gold, wood, water, fire, earth. like jiangshui who lacks water, and therefore his name, for my case, i muz hav an overdose of the element fire. i think i cant be more rite! i hav evidence! almost everyone knows that my natural body temperature is higher than average. like getting 37.5°C is monkey's business to me. i'm perfectly fine at that temperature! am i rite yaowen? no need to ask and i'm sure he'll agree with me. with such a gd evidence, i'm sure i having alot of the element fire in me! haha! i'm red, i'm hot, i'm everything u're not! *tsk tsk brother vince!* haha!

bbq and bbq and bbq! we bbq all the way until 3+am. really, i'm not joking. coz there were too many chicken wings left over, so we gotta try and finish them. and so we did, weiming, lionel and me! we spent great efforts to finish the last two batches of chicken wings. great efforts okay?? the fire was alrdy dying, and without anymore firestarters, we were doing our best to burn new charcoals, yet at the same time, prevent the burning ones frm dying. the burning ones r like alrdy dying and so bloody small lah! but still, with an arsonist present there like me, i kept the bbq fire burning, and cooked the chicken wings until they r tenderly juicily crispy! oh yeah! and honey-glazed too! yum yum yum! slurrpp!

went on to play mahjong, until 6am where everyone cannot take it anymore. everyone is ko-ed alrdy. but i juz gotta say this lah, sorry la yaowen! i guess u're juz really really tired! u broke the silence of the nite, until the whole kampong woke up, and it's my duty to wake u up to stop u frm SNORING loudly. it's really loud lah, woke me up frm my deep sleep, which is supposed to be almost impossible since i'm so tired. u're good lah yaowen! and the nxt thing to break the silence of the house, yaowen's phone. according to lionel, it rang many times. but i dunno lah, only know of the one that yaowen picked up. and guess wad? that call was for yaowen to go for training. omigosh, yaowen and weiming barely slept for a few hrs, and daowei, jasin, lionel and i was asleep for less than one hr. i dunno how, but u juz got that discipline and determination to go for training. i'm amazed yaowen! but that's juz u, so i'm amazed but not surprised! haha! sorry lah, can't walked u out to the bus stop, i'm juz dead tired. cant even stand up frm the bed lah, only gathered enough strength to jump up frm the mattress that i was sharing with weiming and lionel, to the sofa that u were originally sleeping on. haha!wad to do? with less than one hr of sleep, i can only do so much. haha, i'm weak lah! i admit i'm weak! I'M WEAK! happy?

okay, as for this part, i intend to keep this at a super low-profile. whoever who reads this, dun discuss it openly okay? it's like, over at daowei's place, when i was watching the stars alone and then with yaowen, i was damn bloody sian and troubled. 'troubled' may not be the correct word to use, but i juz cant find any other words to put in place. it's like, lionel told me something. although i heard abt it, but somehow, it became a turning point for me. it's the d&b thing. figure it out, for those who really want to know. dunno whether izzit true. heard frm many sources in my life, some say true frm the looks of things, some say not true. i really dunno. it got me really kinda confused. but more or less, my decision has become permanent. and i hav gotta sticked to it, no matter how much i sway. whether that thing is true or not, i'll stick to my decision. i'll hav nothing to do with 'd' other than juz being frends. earlier on i was still saying that i might try again in future, but this time, i'm not even going to. thought abt it long and hard. it's like, i dun think i deserve her. it's unfair to her. the way i handle things between me and her, it's purely a total mess and everything. i dun deserve her. she definitely deserve better. end of fairy tale. end.

yaowen >> i may seem to hav gotten over that thing, but in actual fact, i haven lah. and also, it's not juz the stress frm the common test that's bothering me. there's that thing too. and abit of others too. i dunno lah. i'm juz damn sian. my life is abit like crumbling, but i know u're there. juz like knowing that i'm in 2nd spot in that 'priority list', i feel so happy. haha! but anyway, as how u may have known me, juz to let u know if u dun, things may not always seem like it is as how i portray myself to be. i dun show it, for a reason. i dun want to release my air of gloom when everything is happy like over at daowei's place. that's y i tried my best to enjoy myself over there and not think of so much. that i achieved, but not when i'm alone, when my mind drifts everywhere easily.