woohoo!! i'm feeling great! juz hours ago, i was feeling fuck! but well, anyway, thanks to jiangshui and mamasan, i'm feeling so much better! and also, thanks to yaowen too... had a small chat with him over msn...

slept like a pig today! (^@^) i'm really a pig lah! slept all the way till 12pm! actually woke up at 10+am, but i was still feeling the sian-ness and my spirit was still low, so i juz shut my eyes and went back to sleep. that's how i ended up waking up at 12. ate my supposed breakfast at 12, which can also be considered lunch. this meal was super heavy... so in the end, after makaning it, i juz say on the sofa and grew tired again. was initially in a sitting position, then i slouched, then i lay down like a buddha(if u know wad i mean), then my eyes went heavy. gotta be the heavy meal i juz ate. haha, and guess wad? no need to guess lah, i went to slumberland again. i guess the number of hours i slept could be the total amt of time i slept for a few days during the weekdays... haha, i'm serious!

dealt with a heavy blow today! okay, dun get the wrong idea! but it was like, there was a class bbq today! s10 gathering leh!! after like how long? ever since 1st three mths? haha, but ya, my mum told me that there was a dinner. i thought that it was like super impt for me to turn up lah, like the belated mother's day dinner last saturday. in the end, i thought abt it for a while, and seeing that my elder bro went out, i called him up to check if he was going for the dinner. when he told me that he isn't, i was like, 'shit man, this diner isn't so impt after all!!'. called my mum up immediately, asked her if like is there a need for me to be at the dinner tonite and whether izzit v.impt? and she said nope. i was like, kanasai!! in my mind, i became super relunctant to go for the dinner and had strong intentions of going for my class bbq. but i knew that it was all too late. so i juz told my mum, 'then never mind lah. i'll juz go for the dinner.' and i was in a super foul mood after that. my mum came home soon after that, and had a small talk with her. she asked me wad did i want to do if i'm not going for the dinner, and i thought she knew that i had a class bbq, so i was like telling her my class bbq lor! (okay, that line wasn't in any way with a angry tone, really!) this and that, and i came to find out that there were two families not going, plus the fact that my brother was not going, after knowing how NOT IMPORTANT that dinner was. so i got super super pissed. well, there was nothing i can do, the thing is, i'm going for the dinner, and that's the end of the story. so i juz went to my room, with that pissed feeling in me, i sat on my table and started doing my CL work. but i juz couldn't do it, i couldn't concentrate. so in the end, i msg jiangshui, telling him how angry i was. but he din reply immediately. then, i msg mamasan. *phew*, lucky she respond kinda fast. otherwise i'll juz go bonkers! thanks to her, she managed to calm me down. and also thanks to her, i'm gonna get ice-cream to eat!! haha, i'm so much like a kid! some cheap ice-cream will do lah, mamasan, it's the thoughts that count for this time... really! i'll treat u to some hao3 liao4 nxt time okay? haha! i'm so happy... well, as for jiangshui, he was busy with his invitational shoot over at cdans... but he called immediately when he saw my msg... i feel so glad, that i hav such frends! but when he called, mamasan has managed to bring my temperatures down liao... but still, something shows u know?

lucky thing, i sure din really regret so much missing the class bbq! the dinner was damn good lah! the food really rocks! maybe it's coz of how i felt abt this thing... i told myself, i'm gonna miss the class bbq, and there's nothing i can do abt it, so let's juz go and enjoy this dinner. i feel fortunate! and also the way how i bluff myself, how i delude myself... haha. i was telling myself over at the dinner. 'haha, i'm enjoying super good food. food that's so heavenly. and wad abt the class? they muz be busy eating food that's not as good!' haha, i guess i'm sacarstic. heehee =)

i dunno wad did i do that made me feel so much better! i guess it has gotta do with mamasan and jiangshui. and also thanks to my sis-in-law! she's now trying to encourage and motivate me! saw yest's blog? i was so low, so discouraged, faith all lost in myself. giving up already! well, wad am i talking abt? the same old things, i'm not going specific! but there was this line that mamasan told me, and it was so effective in mending my broken heart. it goes, '...do look on the bright side...god is fair...everyone has their fair shares of ups and downs...' it may look like a common positive statement, but it somehow bring me back to my normal self. as for jiangshui, he managed to clear up a doubt which was seriously bothering me since last nite. and that was one factor which brought me to a mega-low. well, hopefully, that is true! i hope god is not making fun of me for this. as for my sis-in-law, thanks for all the encouraging words that u've given me. ya, i gotta find every opportunity. and i muz not shy away. coz 'its common to shy away...but must rem tt everytime you shy away, you are losing a chance..'! i'm gonna remember this line, to serve as a motivation, and a reminder! i guess most of u out there get wad i'm talking abt here liao!


Aerosmith - I Don't Want To Miss A Thing
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing


Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever


I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing


I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time


Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing