sad,depressed,down,gloomy,low-spirited,joyless,miserable,upset,discourage... wad can i say?? these words r wad's describing my feelings now... i dunno wad's wrong with me, but i dun feel rite... i dun feel good... it has been a BAD day! fuck it!

the day juz din run rite for me... right from the start of the day, i was already feeling gloomy already. i juz took out my phone, change my wallpaper to a bright happy smiley! =D but so wad? it practically only juz serve to remind myself to be happy. i admit, that sometimes i put up a front to everyone. that's coz i dun want my gloom to spread to pple arnd me! i want them to be not stained by my gloom! untainted! besides, i believe that they hav their own things to worry abt already! this thing abt me putting up a front, nah, i din do that at all for the day that juz passed. i was juz not feeling rite! but i sure do once in a while take out my hp and look at the wallpaper to cheer myself up! hAiz, wad the hell lah?? the 'high' that was still lingering arnd me frm the cheerleading competition, was long gone and lost! LOST!

things juz went wrong one after another!

mr vincent quek getting pissed with us when almost more than half the class not doing pe. but it's not our fault at all. it juz so happens that today, everything stacked together. 2 pple on MC, 1 took blue slip, 1 went hockey match, 2 went for band. the others? there were alot of pple that din change out of the uniform to do pe. we were juz all injured or sick. well, maybe not all. i, for instance, am still suffering frm the injury to my left knee that i got frm cheerleading. it's a sharp pain to my knee. same goes for amanda, but it's her right knee. justin was feeling sick. huiyan had a injured left shin. as for the rest, i dunno wad they had. for jiahwa, who faked, i dunno wad to say lah! but definitely, vincent quek got damn pissed off with s10.

econs lec. i was damn tired. s12 were sitting behind me. she was sitting behind me, not directly. i dunno y, but i din say hi to her or wad. i juz went in and sit down, and sleep. when the lec ended, i wanted to turn back and say hi. but the moment i turned back, she turned away. '???' wth juz happen? hAiz, i dun want to complain anymore. but definitely, there's something damn obvious that's showing rite? when she gives me this kinda attitude, i dunno how i shld react. but i'm definitely put off by it. and in the end, i juz walked away, depressed, and din say hi to her in the end. juz got kinda angry and pissed, that i msg mamasan to vent abit of my frustration. thanks mamasan, for taking my nonsense.

NJ lost the hockey girls semis. they sure did well, coz i'm v.impressed by their good play. i'm serious and honest. but definitely, i wun deny that rj is good lah. i sure was hoping that NJ would hav won! but the truth aint so. wad to do? but stef, huijia and huiee sure played super well. and huiee, NICE GOAL!!

shaun came over to tell me this thing after the band concert. well, it sure did bothered me alot. but i shan't say it over here. i juz really wondered how true this thing is. but as always, i'm so SLOW in my actions, there's practically no hope for me lah! i've somehow lost hope in myself too. i'm kinda pissed and angry with myself! fuck it!

i'm lost for words now...