now there's two more pple who know the entire thing that happen. and that is regina and vince. well, din really had the intention of letting regina know abt this thing, coz i like bitching arnd with her, especially so if she doesn't know wad happen, then i can laugh and joke with her and make my day more merrier! oh well, forgot that she can link to my blog, so in the end, she read abt it in my blog, and so, might as well let her know the whole thing. as for vince, he is one of those few that i naturally will let him know. i've somehow classified the pple in my life, between 'deserve to know' and the 'more than deserve to know'... the latter included jiangshui, justin, vince, yaowen&huitze, daowei&jasin, mr tiew and maybe nette. i wun want the rest to know. for regina and stef, well, these two person will read my blog, so come soon or later, they will know abt it.

vince, regina and me were on our way to the national stadium to support SAJC, or more specifically jinglong. but too bad, he din get to play. but my point here was, on our way there, i was recounting wad exactly happen to the two of them. telling the whole story, was kinda sad. but soon after that, i was thinking abt this entire thing, frm how it all started to where it has reached. the start? well, i still remember v.clearly. it took place in lt5, and it all started with jiangshui and nette approaching me, add in a game of bridge. and the macdonald incident, where me and her juz din really talk, coz i humji... but after a while, played some games, managed to open up abit... and all the msges... hAiz, dun want to say anymore... all these will juz be left in my memories... happy memories...

i was also thinking abt this thing for quite a while alrdy. it's like this. i was wondering y did things ended up this way? i began to think back, when i made the call to her, wad was my purpose, wad wad my objective? turning it arnd, how did she perceived the call?

let me put a disclaimer to this section. (in this section, it's all being assumed)
okay, my purpose/objective of that call which i made, was more of like to explain the flowers and to tell her my feelings for her. i wasn't pushing for anything else. wad she perceived, could be that she thought that i was asking her to be my stead. well, that certainly din cross my mind. and maybe thinking in this way, she was pressured to give me a reply. but the thing is that she doesn't know me well, so the best way out was to tell me to be frends. i juz got that gut feeling that there was that air of misunderstanding. i wasn't pressurising her to give me an answer in that way, hAiz, i dunno wad to say... but still, i guess i'll stick to my original decision. of course again, i dunno wad's going to happen in the future...