i dunno wad's in me now... my younger bro, wadever he does, how small or big, can irritate me to the core! shit! somehow, i guess it's coz of wad he did juz now! juz a few seconds ago, he was sitting right nxt to me, a habit of his, to see wad i'm doing over the com. but coz the sight of him is getting to my nerve, i juz told him to leave the room and go do something else. do i sound super mean and evil? i personally find myself so. but y? y am i so mean now? as i said juz now, it's all coz of wad he did to me juz now.

wad did he do?

my mum went out for something, so i'm left to take care of him. kinda like baby-sitting him. a term i always use, although he's no more a baby. he's alrdy pri 5! i think i've mention this like a million times, but being pri 5, he's still not independent enough to take care of himself. not that we dun want to try leaving him at home to fend for himself, but juz that he's not capable to do so, and we know it. argh, that's besides the point. so my mum went out. and the moment she stepped out of the house, my bro started whining abt wad happen earlier on in the day. he was playing this game on ps2, and that he couldn't get this cheat working, which was an invulnerability cheat, so it turned out to be a game he couldn't enjoy coz he kept on dying. one word here, my bro is a sore loser. he dun like the idea of losing and losing and losing. he wants to win and make it as perfect as possible. and this idea of his, sometimes make my blood boil! i mean, losing is not the end of the world, u muz be able to admit defeat at times. in the real world out there, if u can't take in the fact that u've lost, u juz can't survive! this is one thing that i can't stand abt him. well, let's get back to the story. he din enjoyed the game he was playing in the evening. so, when my mum was out of home, he decided to go play the game after figuring out how to execute the cheat properly from ME!

my whole body was filled with blood full of rage. y? i realised that my younger bro was going to play the ps2 in my mum's absence. okay, this wasn't the most important thing, coz i did this too when i was his age. wad made me blast was that he was trying to make use of the fact that i'm going to allow him to play, even though he has played earlier on in the day. and if my mum finds out that he's playing the ps2 somehow without her permission, i might be the one getting it. get it now, pple? my younger bro is trying to make use of ME! knowing this, i tried to keep my cool still. so, i told him to go ask my mum whether he can play... his response was, "i played juz now alrdy, and mummy surely wun allow me to play!"

breaking point! i juz lost my cool there. coz it's so like damn bloody obvious that he knows he can't play, and he still insist on playing, so? he's taking advantage of me! wad the hell lah! i think i got high blood pressure right on the spot! and i decided to leave him be, i juz told him, 'aiyah, u go play lah! i dun want to care! go go go!' and then, he went, 'really ah? i can play ah?' i juz din answer him. his last action was still damn bloody irritating. can't see y? well, he's trying to make sure that i allowed him to play, and that if anything goes wrong, i'm the one responsible! get it pple? that's my brother! that's him! the bloody irritating one!

juz the mention of this whole incident makes my blood boil!