i can't smile now... i juz can't... so pple, dun ask me to smile for u... maybe it isn't the end of the world, so i can still laugh with u, if i can... wadever emotions that i show now, will all be more or less natural. so if u do happen to see me smile, be glad that u did, coz it's a smile that comes frm my heart that is untainted by wadever that has happen!

screwed up my physics SPA... fuck it! i wun speak a word abt it anymore... i'll juz learn my lessons...

i believe even an idiot can tell that i'm not my normal self... well, i dun feel like saying wad has happen. but i can illustrate to u wad i'm feeling now. take this story!

i take a basketball. i stand at 3-pointer line. i hold the ball up, take aim. in my mind, i know i'm no pro, so it's all for luck and hope. i hope i get it in the basket. i shoot, the ball din made thru. shld i pick the ball up and shoot again or shld i juz step back and not shoot anymore?

pple who know me well, they may get wad i'm saying. for those who dun, well, it's meant to be this way. i din intend to let much pple know anyway.

i'm a lost sheep, i need guidance, i feel shit.

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