after looking at all those messages by the many pple in my life, i'm really touched by all their care and concern! firstly, they include yaowen and huitze! omigosh, even huitze spoke... heehee! and of course there's mr tiew... well, mr tiew, i dunno whether u got my story anot! but i bet u'll be asking me wad exactly happen tmr... i can't be more wrong! and of course not forgetting jasin, omigosh, i almost forgot abt u! eh, i'm being honest here okay? but ya, thanks jasin! i'll talk abt it if i wanna...

well, the thing is this. when i received the msg, i was feeling shit lah! so i called jiangshui up. he's alrdy on the bus on his way home alrdy, but coz i'm feeling like shit, so i asked him whether can he come back and meet me at coro... haha, i'm sorry jiangshui, but i juz needed to talk to someone there and then. i was in a loss then lah! i was still abit like trying to digest and absorb the entire thing into my mind.

over at coro, during the conversation with jiangshui, i was still comtemplating hard as to wad i shld do then. i knew, and i told myself too, that life is not pausing. time runs and life continues. but i juz needed an isolation frm reality. frankly speaking, i was still kinda holding on, which was stupid coz i'm juz putting myself in the same misery. but i can't blame myself too, coz i couldn't think properly and straight.

so now, i've more or less thought it thru, i'll juz let things go. coz if i dun, things will remain stagnant, and i'll juz be the irritating persistent bastard... ya, get wad i mean? so how am i looking at things now? well, as i said, i'll let things go as they are... to put it off badly, i've given up. but, i'm not going to think/predict abt wad's going to happen in the future. to put it off simply > i'll release, i'll loosen. things will fall back to their original place. i'm not going to hope for anything. i'll let wadever that is going to happen in the future occur naturally. but the fact will never change, which is that she will be the kind of girl that i will like.

i shall not mention abt this thing anymore... so the boy live happily ever after in afghanistan... the end... =)